My gifts flow "clear" one by one . . . .

Its surprising how God gradually LEADS you into steps that you may be once or many times wanted to take but just couldn't. Why? Because you dint know how! With me, such is about writing and making a blog! :) *somehow talking or communication was never a challenge ;) *

I always knew I could write. In my childhood days, I remember my parents tell me, "you should become a teacher. you can write, you can speak, you can teach, you have it IN you." I knew what they were saying but I dint go deep into it like how I did with communicating. I dint know what to write though some days I would write something and just trash it but yes, I kept exercising that gift, probably like a "once in a blue moon" affair in my senses though I wasn't really realizing it as God's gift to me! I was NEVER a bookworm. My parents got me books so that I could get into a habit of reading *parents are God's beautiful blessing*and then probably that would help me write but I just dint enjoy reading books. They always made me tired just by seeing the volume of it. PHEW! Nevertheless, I did read little books but it was hard for something to get me drawn! *hmm, cant really remember a book I read when i was in school! :P

As a school girl, I LOVED to write and study. The doors of my house are filled with them.  *12 years later, those writings still shine on the doors, thanks to my parents*. My method of learning was different (i know few who had the same style). For me to better understand things, I had to teach myself. Nothing would enter my head if I read it silently. Mugging was like passion to me! it made things simpler for me. Yes, I was both the teacher and the student! haha! Little did I know I would end up having a call to write again... for a purpose as my spirits voices in me! *You are good God!*

Looking back, Woah! it was always a journey!!! God at His time is showing me that a decade ago it was already proclaimed that Im blessed with the gift of writing. All I had to do was see it "clearly" and remove the chance of fear that I once had. "what would people think, they could criticize in a bad way".. I dont know! it just blocked me from doing it. Nope, I havent missed out. I am blessed to see it NOW! In God's Kingdom, its NEVER late because God wants His darling children to come to Him :). I may not have a very good vocabulary or even the best writing around but that doesnt matter at all. That is not my aim *His aim*! What matters is how God is working in my life, bringing that enormous change in me for my betterment. Blessing me back with the gift He gave me once, using me to help others already by talking about His work, bringing back the de-flamed fire in them or helping them crave for that fire. This is the best award that I can ever receive... just for allowing my heart to open to Him! ..... and all this to honour His glory! Praise God!!!

Stepping into college years, I "silently" wrote. Silent.... no one knew. I never shared. I wrote it to myself. Why? because writing came to me as I poured forth my sorrows. I found myself writing best when I was in pain. I would be bleeding so badly in my heart. I just could not express joy in writing. There was no end to my tears. Many say a passion to write comes only when your in pain, feelings only flow then! NOPE! I just proved myself wrong here buddy! :)

I AM IN COMPLETE JOY! In the deepest of the deepest part, my calling now is to write whatever my heart speaks, whatever it wants to communicate to God's children and whatever the spirit in me speaks as it could touch atleast one at a time. Its all God's beautiful doing.... and here, after 4 years since I wrote the last, I am back to writing.. ot to forget my pain, not to increase my pain, not to be stressed out, not to invite more of the devil BUT for God... for myself... for His children. 

So my lovies.... even if it took a decade and little more for me to realize what I am capable of, there SURE came a day when I was taken to it and here I am now, writing and writing.... Im sure you are already wanting to be able to see things more "clearly". Well then, there is only one true way... open those hearts to HIM! Trust me, ITS TRUE MAGIC! :D

YOU ARE GIFTED! 
God bless!!!
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